Bad Choosing

The devil was only my helper

But I was the jailer of my own soul

He would have given me diamonds in trade

When the Master required them from me

I had chosen to hold onto my idols

To remember when death seemed inviting somehow

Yet now he has brought me full circle

The Light was within me

But I had abandoned his voice

But I had lost hold of reality

I struck out in a self-perceived, 'assured' center

I embraced a new direction

And as I awoke from those days of wilderness

The Way was branded on my heart

But the Truth had never left me

My experience was a dark field of lies

I had been removed from hope

I was lost

And loneliness, loneliness, loneliness